Philosophical Rants of an Engineering Student 2: Purpose and Time

These usually come to me late at night, or more accurately early in the morning. I don't really know why I'm posting this I don't have anything intelligent to say. I'm not feeling terribly clever at the moment, nor humorous, nor introspective. I am feeling a bit purposeless. Homework is light this weekend leaving me to do whatever I want, but I don't really have anything to do, so I sit around discussing random game theory, which I usually love, but none of the issues are terribly important right now. I then spent the rest of the evening hanging out in the freshman dorm I hang out in.

Now its 3:18am and I actually feel like going to bed. I'm not sure this is really a good thing. The times I stay up really late it is usually because I have something to discuss or write on. Tonight there is nothing of that sort.

I could get to looking over this AI competition. Surely I would enjoy it, and it would occupy some time. The problem is after tomorrow I will be back to doing homework everynight and I won't have time to do it as much as I want, so I don't get started. When will I have time to work on anything important outside of school? I certainly don't regret spending my time studying, but it seems like there are so many really cool things I could get into and do so much, but I can't because I have class.

Class... on the one hand classes take up so much time. On the other I feel like there is a lot of wasted time and I could be learning this so much more I focused on nothing else. I have always had a strong desire to focus on one thing and one thing only. One thing at a time. If it is important its worth focusing on with my entire being, or else not bothering with at all. I focus on something till I am bored with it and then there is an abrubt stop. Surely I am more this way than other people. I am able to focus on something far longer than other people, and when I do get sucked into something, I don't bother with anything else. I do this with computer games. I will play one game for a week or two and nothing else, but after approximately that much time I will get bored with it and won't play it anymore for months. I realize this is fantastically impossible in the real world. Multitasking is the name of the game in real life.

What does this mean for my professional career? Will I be 200% into a project for a month or two and then lose complete interest? That won't fly.

PS - This post was strangely lacking in the depressing department. I thought it would be.